Unwritten in the Stars

History: This was inspired by someone who realized how wrong she was, a little too late.

Written a little over two years ago, enjoy.

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I guess this is it.  Unbelievable how this became the sad ending to one love story I will never forget.

You are leaving in exactly 12 hours and never going to look back. You will be a wife to a guy who saved you from me and will probably be a mother soon after.

In hindsight, we were inseparable back then. We were incredibly happy and very much in love. We were reckless and stupid but intensely crazy for each other.  You didn’t care that I was with someone else when we first met each other. We took risks and made love endlessly. We were on a roller coaster ride, complete with its ups and downs.

I loved you but I was young and foolish. I never realized your true worth and sadly, I kept hurting you. You took all the punches you can take, rationalizing that you loved me. You said you’d endure anything just to be with me. Unfortunately, I was a selfish prick and you were on the losing end of the bargain.

Finally, you gave up and admitted that you’ve had enough. You were able to summon the strength to let go which I never expected from you.  I thought you’d always be there for me but I guess, it was my time to pay my dues.

And I’ve been in excruciating pain ever since, suffering in silence.

Now, it’s too late to cry for you. It’s too late to ask for neither a hug nor a kiss. It’s too late to call you mine.

But I hope it’s not too late to ask for forgiveness for all the pain I’ve caused.   Please know that I’ll miss you and I will keep missing you. You are an important part of me and it will stay that way for the rest of my life.

This is it. This may be the last time that I’ll ever see you and this the last time I say this. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life, even for just a while. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and for that I am eternally grateful. Please take care of yourself and know that I will always love you.

I guess this is it. This is the sad ending to a love story that was not written in the stars.